The letter that changed my world

Dear Paulo


Published on February 18, 2010 in News.



I trust you and your family are well. Currently I am sitting in the hostel in Monserrat looking out over the church having just heard the choir sing. We are travelling on your quest for the sword we knew before we left that the financial prize had been won but I have to tell you this expedition has already ment more to me than 100.000 USD

I feel blessed to be travelling these amazing sites, meeting these brilliant people, learning these amazing facts, and learning to love and listen to myself on a journey that I needed to be on right now.

I have kept a blog of our entries which you may be interested in looking

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Truthfully I just wanted to thank you personally and hopefully one day I will. You have given me the courage and strength to review my own personal situation and realise the most important things in life. I have worked in Real Estate for 7 years I made and lost a considerable ammount of money at 27 working in Istanbul and from the outside living the dream. The reality was very different and this trip has really made me change the course of the rest of my life.

I wanted to share with you a poem I wrote here that I think is very apt to the situation and journey I am on this very second.





If I made a commandment it would be be free,


To think and laugh for as far as your eyes can see,


To remember your health and forget all else.


Bad memories make the good ones great.


To forget your human and just escape.






To make the winter mean the summer is near,


And the storms to bring the clear.


To be thankful of life to up at the stars,


But while on earth to pretend on mars.






To know not everything you face can change,


But be changed when face,


Your biggest fears which bring you to tears,


To become the reason you out do your piers.






To know the zen you find on a mountain is the zen you take,


And to teach is to make a mind skate,


To remember if your looking down on someone your helping them up,


And giving them your tender touch.


To know unfinished can also be complete,


To walk tall and not look at your feet.






To live for the moment and forget the past,


To know you ll have the last laugh,


Not to share my riches but to show their own,


And know you have the key to create the unknown.






To fulfil life’s prophecies in your own special way,


At the beginning of night or the end of the day,


To be free as a butterfly preparing for flight,


Leaving the world and all out of sight.






To take off and fly wherever you go,


To be free as a bird looking down below,


Freedom gives you the space to move whether full or empty with nothing to loose


Swimming in an ocean of discontent is like drowning with your consent,


Dive into the pool and swim to the end and get out and start again ………………



Your stories will live on long after you are gone. That is a blessing few men will ever be given.



With all my Love,



Camilla

Lifes Rules

You make your own rules to life as the ones that are set are not helping anyone to win.




There is a house of playing cards that in my view is falling down. A society that has gone so wrong even the politicians and public don’t know who can pick up the poisoned chalice and continue drinking from it. A society that are slaves. Slaves for the banks they borrow money from, the mortgage providers and land lords, the mobile phone operators and even the restaurants where the few lucky ones can afford to eat in. We have become slaves of our society and rules that we so readily accepted as good ways to live our lives we are starting to realise that perhaps we have made mistakes. So as countless young people now with debts from university apply for jobs that are not there, and failing companies who can not afford to hire them we all wonder where the next steps are. As we pay tax money to benefit families and refugees there is a moment that one can actually stop and say no.



I am not saying I have the answers but actually I have no questions either. All I do know is that I thought out of the box instead of getting back into it and as a result I feel enriched, enlightened and energised knowing that just as a good friend of mine said: “ When you want something, all the universe conspires in helping you to achieve it.”



So I asked for freedom. Instead of paying rent I paid for airfares and I am now cashing in on airline miles for further adventures. Managing to talk my way around the globe seizing opportunities rather than dismissing them. I would like to re-continue writing my adventures and introspections. And, for all those people who have been following my blog I am sorry I disappeared.



The lesson I have learnt is that one can not change what people will say and think about you. And one should not judge other peoples actions by their own standards or values as they will always be let down. There are human vampires who suck lifes energy out of you by negativity and now through experience I have realised the only way to deal with these people is to give them no ammunition and none of your energy just carry on in your direction. Haters are confused admirers who can't understand why everybody loves you





So I because looking back into the past has not helped me to date I will take you with me into the future…………… NEPAL!

BRIGHT SATURDAY

And there she was this woman and girl, child and grandmother, virgin and slut, believer and needer, pilgrim and analyst, leader and loser, a heterosexual lesbian so confused about where she was going or what she was doing, forgetting her own name while she flicked through the society magazines of celebrities, which usually she would have bought but now she was too old to steal and having just turned down a job to the only company she send her CV to and wanted to work for could not justify buying. Not actually realizing that a bigger celebrity than all the ones in the magazines was waiting for her in the airport at the other end of the plane, she nearly missed forgetting who she was until her name was being announced on the tannoy for final call in Heathrow. And, as she ran to the plane she did not quite realize that this departure was about to change her life and the person she believed she was forever. So as she smiled realizing her seat was 2B and most of the plane wouldn’t know it was her who had held it up she buckled up and prepared for take-off and flew far away from everyone she knew, everything she thought she knew and into the unknown

TIMING!

They say a broken clock tells the right time twice a day, actually if we think about it, it tells the right time in around about way several times a day all over the world.




Time is the only commodity with any real value, we spend time, we waste time and we invest time.

More precious than any monetary value our time in timeless and our time is timed.

The cause of death is birth and from the moment we are born our time is counted. Why then if we have a lot of time on our hands are we not considered rich?

I read a Chinese proverb once which said: If we are wasting time and enjoying ourselves we are not wasting time.

Therefore right now at this very moment I would say I am the richest person I know as I have all the time in the world.

TO BE CONTINUED!

FOUNTAINS 2

CAMILLA STAUNTON